I sit here looking at the dates of my last postcards and I can feel how my motivation and effort has seasons and some are blending more and more together. I have so many dreams and wishes to create in this space, but when it comes time to sit and create, I just pick up a book instead.
Editor Sofia in a selfie.
I have been trying to set myself on building new habits. I have taken the advice of so many internet self helpers and picked a single habit here and there to focus on. My latest being a dedication to a daily workout to pair with a different new hobby of mine. As of today, I have made it over 80 days in a row building this habit. Even days when I have lots of plans, I find myself getting up earlier to get this workout in and out of the way. I accidentally became a morning person that gets certain things done and has the evening to lay in bed and read or game. I now have new habits I want to slot in the same way. It’s not going well, but I know I could do it if I could try. Each day I don’t brings frustration and disappointment.
However, recently I opened my laptop and website and just hit new post and started writing. My thoughts were disjointed but they just kept coming. I remembered how much I loved doing this. I don’t always have new experiences to share, but I love creating and writing in this little space of mine. I have not made it through any of my resolutions yet, though one is on its way. I know I’ll still struggle here and there but I can feel it. I can feel some things coming back to me, and they give me the motivation to try, and the little push I needed to start this again.
The world is changing rapidly every day, but I hope something from our old lives and old selves that brings you joy, and allows you to keep that joy, calls back to you. I hope that familiar thing reminds you how much you loved it. I know it’s waiting for you to return and I hope you can find that little thing inside you needed to start again.